I don’t want to write him back. I can’t be another one on a long string of pearls. But I miss him. I hate love…
You’re still in it. You’ll always be in it. No, not literally. But in your heart. Nothing ever ends, not if it’s gone that deep. You’ll always be walking wounded. That’s the only choice, after a while. Walking wounded, or dead.
— | Julian Barnes, from The Only Story |
Yes yes, Mr. Barnes couldn’t have said it better.

I should just look forward to go traveling again. Even though I have no more money. 😀